For the past couple of weeks, so
many thoughts have been plaguing me and I found myself so scared to the point
of crying for days. I kept crying out to God so much on behalf of my family,
friends, the nation, unbelievers and especially believers.
Recently, I attended a Singles
Retreat in Florida and can I tell you I did not attend just another session
about singleness. This retreat was far more than trying to tell us to accept
our single status or preparing for a spouse but it really challenged me to
prepare for my marriage with Christ and preparing for eternity. During a visit
to my sister, Itohan's church, God started to download so much into my Spirit
about how caught up many of us are in doing things for Him yet we don't know
Him. Many of us are so busy serving in many ministries at church, leading
services and even preaching about Him yet we don't spend anytime with Him. We
have accepted a form of godliness yet denying the true power of God (2 Timothy
3:5).
Many of us know the Word of God but not the God of the Word!!
Many of us know the Word of God but not the God of the Word!!
I wept bitterly!!
Sometimes we believe that we love
God and try prove this by our works while God is saying HE wants a relationship
with us. Honestly, I really had to cry out to God and ask Him to help me to
love Him with all my heart, all my soul and all my mind (Matthew 22:37).
I had to beg God to help me to have a daily encounter with Him, help me
to seek His heart and not His hands, help me to truly know Him and not settle
with knowing about Him, help my worship and relationship with Him to be real
and not for a show!!
God knows how scared I am to be
posting on Facebook about Him, sharing blogs, preaching the Gospel, being
celibate and doing things in His name then on the day when I see Him face to face hear 'Depart from me, I
know you not' (Matthew 7:21-23).
If we truly understand that everything we are busy seeking is so so temporary, we would yearn deeper for a Heart of Worship.
So yes I want a husband but guess what marriage is temporary, yes I love my
daughter but guess what motherhood is temporary, yes I want to serve and do
great things for God but guess what ministry is temporary... ONLY MY
RELATIONSHIP WITH GOD IS ETERNAL!!
My relationship with God is the only thing that is lasting; because there will be no marriage, ministry or career in heaven. So yes, I can
desire these things but daily I have to ensure that I am not so earthly-minded
that I am no heavenly-good.
I wrote a blog couple months ago
about Modern Day Idolatry and I encourage you to
check it out because it is so easy for us to be caught up in so many things
that God is no longer a priority.
Friends, I beg you to check
yourself daily.. Ensure that you are not so in love with the creation that you
desert the Creator! If you feel you need help, reach out to someone or drop me
an email and I will pray with you.
WE NEED
GOD MORE THAN EVER NOW! SEEK HIM! GET IN HIS WORD!!
I truly love each and everyone of you and I pray you will be challenged to truly repent and seek God some more!
Let us pray
Dear Abba Father, teach me to
love you with all my heart, all my soul and all my mind. Help me to have a true
heart of worship and diligently seek you every single day. Lord, I ask that you
give me a new encounter with you and help me to have an authentic relationship
with you. God I ask you for increase my appetite for your Word, let me hunger and
thirst for your righteousness and seek your heart and not your hands. Forgive
me Jesus for being so caught up in temporary things. Holy Spirit lead me and have
your way. In Jesus' name. Amen
Check out this song by D Murphy.. It has been on replay for weeks!
Also check out this sermon from my favorite female minister, Heather Lindsey
To God to be Glory****
Crystal
Crystal
Feel free to email me with questions or concerns at
shachene@gmail.com
Very relatable blog. As i just started to do my devotion back again.
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